Originally Posted by xpaeanx

i suppose I should explain.... I lived in europe during the beginning of the iraq war, and i'm american. Everyone hated me, had no friends... I was there as a student, and my host family wouldn't even talk to me. All I heard was how I was worth **** b/c I was american, and how all america sucks. I became very very depressed. I had one friend... she was american too. We went on a tour with the rest of the group of exchang students. Most of the other exchange students wanted nothing to do with us too.... by the end of the tour we were still depressed from having no friends, we hadn't slept at all during the whole trip, and we're both vegetrains so we had eaten next to nothing since it is very had to find vegetarian food in germany. I couldn't really eat I was so depressed and tired. We were in berlin I think it was, and found a falafel place that had vegetarian falafels.... so my friend ordered one... when we got it it had lamb alllllll over it.... we both just looked at eachother walked away and started crying.... it doesn't help we had our periods either.... but it was like the whole country hated us, like the soil itself wanted us to just....disappear..... I can't even begin to explain the amount of depression I was going through.... In fact i've never been the same since.... and that's when it all just came to a head. I went home shortly after... cutting my exchange about 6 months short.....